A quarter of this year has gone by, and I feel it’s time for a quarterly review of my word of this year.
Creation has sprung eternal, as evidenced by this blog, yes, but in so many areas of my life.
I practice radical self-inquiry. I believe the only way to grow and evolve is to practice a continuous audit to understand what is working towards your highest self.
This year I deemed the year of the Creator. The impetus is that I was beginning to feel somewhat stuck in some areas of my life. This left me with bouts of anxiety, resentment, and loneliness.
When I speak to my clients about anxiety we talk about moving through the cycle. Because anxiety is an emotion rooted in survival, its primary goal is to keep you in place so as to not risk exposure. In order to move through this, we have to keep moving. This does not mean to hustle, and I am quite unenamoured with the whole “hustle culture” mindset at large. What I am more interested in is creating a source of sustainability within myself.
I began to think, what could I move towards to experience more freedom and less constraint? What could I actively create in my world to secure parts of my world both for my present and future self?
Art is but one form of expression, and what if there was something looming much larger that could be an even greater act of self-compassion?
I have yet to experience the culmination of my efforts, but I have planted the seeds I sense I will soon begin to sow. I have taken root in this act of continuous creation. I have nested in acts of nurturance, creating a home within myself. I am feeling more unshakable in this rooted existence.
I recently ran across this quote
“Had I not created my whole world, I would certainly have died in other people’s.” ― Anaïs Nin
How painstakingly true this has been in my world; and so I began to create a vast world of wonder within myself, constructed of my own intuition. It is only when I made a home within myself that I became an enthusiast of existence.
In 2023 I seek to create a world; that which is comprised of me, and all I hold dear.
This is the rise of resilience. This is the Call of Creator.